Evaluations!

I found it so utterly fascinating to see how other people experienced my communication style. It actually gave me a lot more confidence, which I didn't predict at all, but I am so grateful. People find me more inspiring and articulate than I thought. My sense of self, once again, is apparently skewed.

I have always felt so insecure and self-conscious. This has been difficult for many reasons, but one reason in particular is because I am, deep within my soul, a supremely strong, charismatic, and driven woman. This is at the core of who I am. I believe that outside forces and messages have soaked into my heart and being, and since I am so sensitive I have internalized a lot of the negativity and criticism throughout my childhood years in particular. It has been a snowball effect throughout my life. I have pushed back however, and have worked hard to reclaim my voice and soul. I have a lot to say and a lot to share with the world, but the one aspect of my humanity that always trips me up to this day is opening my mouth. I am so articulate when writing. I am so proud at the concepts and words and poetry that trickles from my mind, through my fingers, and onto the page. However, and deeply unfortunately, it never comes out as gracefully and heroically when verbalizing. Perhaps this is yet another reason I love acting so much. I have the script right there in front of me!

I do have a strong commitment to bettering myself. I am nurturing the parts of me that are strongest- listening and empathy- and trying to strengthen the part of me that is more challenging- verbalizing!